There is so much I want to say, but I can't get my thoughts organized.
But one thing I know is for certain, you did NOT fail your grandfather in his final moments. I think he squeezed your hand because he wanted you to know he loved you and didn't want your strongest memory of him to be there, dying.
What a thoughtful post and full of such emotion. You have me crying. He sounded like a wonderful human being and how lucky that he was YOUR grandfather. You have me thinking of my grampa now. I have similar feelings and memories. Is it his house that you now live in? Tasha, you did not fail your grandfather. Your special bond is forever.
All choked up here. Listen lovely, you were there for him and that's what matters. You were ushered out anyway, so it would have happend the same. You were there, that's what counts and he knew it. Anything more he probably didn't even know.
You both had love, and you are passing it along, this is the legacy and that is the greatest gift you can give and you are by sharing him with your family and with the world, and us.
You've got such heart, hugs to you.
I really like that photo.
T. don't be so hard on yourself - you were fourteen and I think you did the best you could at that time. You did not fail him - not if the words you're writing here are even one-tenth of how much you loved him. You've remembered him in your heart and mind... what a wonderful tribute!
That is all just perfectly sad and beautiful. I'm all choked up. I don't really know you, and I'm on the other side of the world, but I wish I could hug you.
Wow. I am so moved by what you've written, and by the love for your grandfather which reaches out and grabs hold of me through your words. Beautiful. And your babybug...is you!
There is so much I want to say, but I can't get my thoughts organized.
But one thing I know is for certain, you did NOT fail your grandfather in his final moments. I think he squeezed your hand because he wanted you to know he loved you and didn't want your strongest memory of him to be there, dying.
He was an amazing man.
Posted by: capello | Saturday, March 18, 2006 at 04:51 AM
What a thoughtful post and full of such emotion. You have me crying. He sounded like a wonderful human being and how lucky that he was YOUR grandfather. You have me thinking of my grampa now. I have similar feelings and memories. Is it his house that you now live in? Tasha, you did not fail your grandfather. Your special bond is forever.
And your daughter looks so much like you!
Posted by: Angela | Saturday, March 18, 2006 at 10:27 AM
All choked up here. Listen lovely, you were there for him and that's what matters. You were ushered out anyway, so it would have happend the same. You were there, that's what counts and he knew it. Anything more he probably didn't even know.
You both had love, and you are passing it along, this is the legacy and that is the greatest gift you can give and you are by sharing him with your family and with the world, and us.
You've got such heart, hugs to you.
I really like that photo.
Posted by: Gina | Saturday, March 18, 2006 at 03:53 PM
T. don't be so hard on yourself - you were fourteen and I think you did the best you could at that time. You did not fail him - not if the words you're writing here are even one-tenth of how much you loved him. You've remembered him in your heart and mind... what a wonderful tribute!
Posted by: ruralmama | Saturday, March 18, 2006 at 04:45 PM
That is all just perfectly sad and beautiful. I'm all choked up. I don't really know you, and I'm on the other side of the world, but I wish I could hug you.
Posted by: Alicia A. | Sunday, March 19, 2006 at 05:24 PM
Wow. I am so moved by what you've written, and by the love for your grandfather which reaches out and grabs hold of me through your words. Beautiful. And your babybug...is you!
Posted by: Meegan Blue | Thursday, March 30, 2006 at 03:35 PM